QuirkLogic

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how can i tell 2010 is gonna be one fab year?

it starts with greenday baby of course! killers on 24th but i cant possibly go to that many gigs unless im feeking rich. and the mamas of all big mamas, Muse fronting Big Night Out 2010 on 3rd Feb, a day which makes me 27 years one day old. how awesomedelicious is that? super hyped out!

anyway, i am so damn craving the juicy taste of BURGER RAMLY!! meh.. i dont mind chewy junior original and some sushi with wasabi... woohoo. hits the spot.

dreams. the only time i get to meet you once again.

it was a good one. with loads of visiting adorable little kiddies of both our besties. despite the fact that mommy's not around and i have to play little maid. anyhoo. have my eyes set on this pair of weathered dark grey leggings over at berskha at ION. i kinda like their style. very zara with an extra edge. some are too clubbing-ish tho but most are quite rockin.

OK. MUST WORK!

seeing how all my bg-relationships are a flop, im seriously considering being single forever. not that its smtg im praying for myself bcos obviously having a life partner beats being alone. but i don really fancy being attached when you are obliged to bring the bf everywhere you go or do coupley things together.. i mean who sets all this rules. i would prolly try to settle down but the free spirit in me just wont let me. maybe ive yet to meet my match. riighhhtt.. not gonna let my hopes up. but anyhoo, ive got other things to be happy about, who says you gotta be in a rship to be happy right?

so im damn psyched that muse is coming for my bdae!! plug in party baby!!! 3rd february 2010, a belated one but like most party-lovers, i celebrate my bdae for a whole week baby! greenday's coming on 15 jan, having bought them tix yet crap. u know what 2010 sounds like the start of a good year. maybe i'll elope!

one more wedding down, many more to come!

it did cross my mind a couple of times to be a cabin crew cos i get to travel and i'll be rich

but haha i think im too old for that

despite being low on moolah, ive got a list of things i plan to buy erm dono when? haha

1. polky dot tee fr graniph

2. this cute muji ruffled grey top (must take a look again)

3. a visit to nana for skirts and dresses

4. ikea black table

5. muji brown box and uber cool white storage

haha. a girl surely can dream, cant she?

but when you have faith in Him, its suddenly easier to breathe.

i guess ive been watching too many of those wedding/love/etc flicks. which is bad. but who am i kidding, ive always been an idealist, a true believer in Love. but not for myself. well most ppl who are able to find that elusive soulmate should really count their lucky stars. but i guess hope for settling and knowing deep in my heart that the person's for me is just hanging by a thread. but maybe i haf a certain disillusionment about what love is supposed to be? maybe im expecting too much? but im just wondering whether that slight tingle in the tummy or knwing that you can wake up to that face everyday real or just a myth? maybe i'll get hitched, maybe i won't. it doesnt worry me as long as i keep in sight that i want to marry that person because i want to, not because he's nice to me or because of the biological clock ticking. but when i ask my heart, i get no replies. so now i seriously wonder, do i haf the capacity to love somebody at all? im beginning to doubt that and its freaking me out. its like i dont feel. everything is detached. so when i watched 500 days of summer, i was delighted because Summer Finn actually is similar to me. call it bohemian, call it free spirit.

anyway its not that im not happy. i love my life. i love my frens and whats happening around me right now, counting my blessings. im just keeping this part of my life perhaps in limbo? or at the back of the wardrobe. maybe ill clear that wardrobe. someday.

cheers!

i know in theory that happiness is a state of mind and somehow you can yourself twist this state of mind around and make yourself happy, but im not. i think im depressed. apart from domestic troubles which is somewhat continual, im worried that i may never find myself a job. im tempted by this particular offer but the work timing is so off the radar. so i really dono what to do next. going for a freelance project later this one's no biggie. just a bit of loose change to tide me over for abit. and another. the path to true love is never smooth. and never has mine ever been. i honestly think there's a wiring system default in the romance department as i can never be happy with what i got. or maybe because its not the right one?

sigh! hate feeling this way man. thank god for several distractions of weddings and the likes.